Tattoo

 

Tattoo

By Erma

I CAN’T DO IT ANYMORE! I can not sit here on my bed looking at the name on my lower arm which I am pretty sure is not a girl's name, and beat myself up about how my soulmate is not a girl. I came out as a lesbian when I was 10 and now that I’m 13 and got the imprint (i guess you could call it a tattoo that just kind-of appears) of my soulmates name...I just don't think that Aaron Tanner is a girl’s name. What makes it worse is it is not my girlfriend Lala’s name. But I am hoping that it is a good day because it's our birthday. anyways, I can’t sit here any longer, I have breakfast to attend. I went downstairs and saw my mom making breakfast with Joclyn. Hehehe! Joclyn has not read the name yet! FINALLY, TIME TO TELL! I run down the remaining stairs and with as worried a face as I can muster, (because I know that it will make her listen) signal for Joclyn to meet me in my room in a minute and run to my room throwing myself on my bed. I lay there for a few seconds and take a breath before...5...4...3...2...1...0! Just as I predicted, Joclyn comes running into my room, shuts the door, and comes to sit next to me on my bed.

“What's wrong?” she whispered

I showed her my arm and she yelped in a happy way, then read my arm. She just sat there, frozen, staring at my arm with wide eyes. I pull my arm away and she looks up at me. Then she whisper yells “THAT SOUNDS LIKE A BOYS NAME SIDNEY!” I plaster the best fake smile I can and, through gritted teeth and as happy sounding I could mutter, said “I know but I don't want to worry about it right now, I just wanted you to be aware of this.”

“Well, I have a problem too. My name is not there” she said as she showed her arm

The way the tattoos work is that you wake up with it on your 13th birthday but there isn’t one there on her.

I walk into school and the teacher in my homeroom announces that we need to be ready for the new kid that is coming on Monday next week. she would not tell us their name or gender. So we are all curious as to who the new kid is. Then she talks about a ton of other things too. Jacob (he is one of my friends) comes up to me and Joclyn after the bell. And said

“Hey I know it is your b-day so I wanted to know who you got!”

“None of your business!” she replied. But what was actually going on was she was trying to hide that no name had appeared on her flawlessly tan skin.

The rest of the week goes smoothly even though people kept bullying me about my soulmate’s name but now it's the weekend! I finally have time to myself. I start trying to look up the name on my arm because I am curious but all I get is a dude in his late 50s who died 10 years ago. So I guess no luck. I give up and Joclyn and I go hang at the park. I make sure to wear my old torn hoodie and my torn old jeans. Anything to just feel comfortable in my own skin and keep the eyes away from my imprint.

My mom comes bursting into my room on Monday morning to wake me up because I slept in for 10 extra minutes so I try to get dressed but I can't find anything. My mom wanted me to lay my outfit out before I went to bed but I didn't. I was just too tired last night. I stayed up till midnight, finishing the 3 missing assignments I had to do and the science project due today.

Finally, after choosing my short-sleeved, neon green crop top with a tank top in the same color under it. I also threw on my favorite pair of skinny jeans and my most cherished choker and bracelet set. The choker has a bright green gem that matches my shirt and the bracelet is decorated in the green gems too. I am looking good today! (At least I think I do) 

I grab my bag, put on my shiny high-tops and head for school.

       

       

 I completely forgot about the new student coming to our school today. I walked in and then realized I was late so I ran in and took a seat.

“students I would like to introduce you to our new student…….. AARON!”

        Joclyn turns and looks at me with wide eyes. I’m looking at the door waiting to see a male student stroll through the door but instead, a girl strolls in and says “Hi I’m Aaron and I just moved here to Oregon from Florida!”

Florida! Why would she move to Oregon from Florida?

         “Sidney? SIDNEY!”

“what? what's going on?”

“The teacher just called on you to show the new kid around. Go up there stupid”

“Oh ok,” I stood up and walked up to the front of the room.

Then the teacher dismissed everyone for recess but made me and Aaron stay.

She introduced Aaron to me

“This is Aaron”

        I realized she was wearing a short-sleeved shirt too but I could not tell what the name on her arm was.

Then the school day officially started (because homeroom does not count) and Aaron showed me that our outfits matched!

HOW HAD I NOT NOTICED THAT BEFORE! I SHOULD HAVE NOTICED THAT!  Especially since the shirts fit her so much better than they do me and the skinny jeans line her waist so perfectly. She wore her hair in the perfect high-pony that fell down past her waist and was the prettiest shade of blond. it was ever so straight! It didn’t take long for me to soak in all the parts of her that caught my eye. Me and Aaron are talking about who people are and she said 

“Do you know who Sidney sapphire is?”

“Um... I’m Sidney”

“No, you're joking "she said and started laughing.

“What?”

“I just did not think the teacher would put me with my soulmate”

“Well there was some bullying because of my name print coming two weeks sooner than normal”

“Well show me your arm and i will show you mine.”

“Ok”

She wraps her arm around me and then shows me her arm….

Then we both moved away from each other pretty quickly because joclyn came running at me with an overjoyed look on her face and tears running down her cheeks 

“SIDNEY!!!!!!” Joclyn yells

“What” I reply 

“My soulmate's name is there now” Joclyn cried 

“YAY WHO!” I yelled back

“Jacob sanders!” Joclyn responded

“what? who?” Aaron said in a surprised and confused voice all at the same time.

“Him,” I said as I point to Jacob who is sitting in a black hoodie and long black baggy sweat-pants  

“Why now though?” I added

“Because I have always just considered him my friend but I came around and realized he could be more than that and that he is amazingly attractive.” she said shyly

“Good for you and all but how is Mr. Depression attractive?” Aaron asked

“I don't understand why ANY guy is attractive!” I added

“I know right!” Aaron quickly added “No offense to you Joclyn.” 

“None taken. Anyways I got to get to class!” Joclyn yelled as she took of for class

“Wait!” I yell to stop her

“What” she replies as she stops and turns around

“Are you going to tell him?”

“Not yet maybe later if I have too”

“Ok bye Joclyn!”

“Yeah bye Joclyn!”

 Then I continued to show Aaron around.

I went to school today to talk to Jacob because I'm bored but I can't find him…

 I FOUND HIM! but wait, is he crying?... YES! I mean he has been down in the dumps these past few days. Sense Joclyn would not tell the name on her arm.

“What’s wrong?”

He showed me his arm and said

“She..[sniff]..has...[sniff]...someone else…[sniff]...on her arm…[sniff]...that’s not me.”

“Come with me”

We walked up to Joclyn and I told her that the three of us need to talk and so she followed me too and when we got away from all the people I said,

“Joclyn, Jacob is upset because he thinks the person whose name is on his arm has a different soulmate”

“Ok, who is on your arm?”

Jacob looks up at Joclyn, pulls back his hood to reveal his puffy red face from were he had been crying and in a very slow and low voice says,

“You” “Really! I was scared you were going to have someone else!” Joclyn squealed

“Wait what?”

“Yea you are on my arm too”

“Then why didn’t you tell me?”

“Because my name just showed up yesterday...” 

That night I was texting Aaron and we agreed to date because we already know we are soulmates. Then I get to school on Monday and Jacob and Joclyn are walking down the hallway holding hands! I am so happy for my twin sis and Jacob. My mom and dad both calmed down when she got the name on her arm so that was good. 

        I felt bad for Lala for a while though, she found her soulmate but it’s a boy whose name is Skyler Maxwelder. after a few years, she found out that she is not a lesbian though so that worked out pretty well. She decided she was bi’ and then she started ignoring me soooooo yeah all that happened. 

“Honey, I'm home!”

“I'm in the living room, Aaron!”

“Mommy! Mommy!”

Oh sorry! Forgot to say, I am now 35 and happily married to Aaron. We have a little 7-year-old girl named Lilly tanner.               

Jacob and Joclyn are married and have 6 kids. Jake, may, trinity, Joanna, Jesse, and Sillas.

Lala and Skyler are married and have 3 children. she will not tell me their names though

[sigh] Life is amazing! (just like Aaron.)

“Oh, stop being mushy with your writing!” Aaron said

“I will get mushy if I want especially if I’m talking about you, babe!” I said in a funny joking tone.

“Oh jeez, Sid!” Aaron responded

“Come on mommies!” Lilly yells

“Ok ok, I’m coming Lilly I’m coming!” Aaron said in a tired voice

“Me too I’m on my way with the keys now” I responded

“No, you are not, you're wrapping up the end by writing every word we say so I say poopy pants!” Lilly joked

“Oh, you little stinker I’m going to come and get you!” I said

“AAAAAAHHHHHH! Hehehehehehe!” Lilly giggled

We all start laughing and then we load up in our blue ford focus that we have had for 10 years to go to the doctor for Lilly's yearly checkup.

Goodbye journal.

And Farewell. 

From the better twin (not really but still)